Malang, Indonesia – After the Surabaya District Court docket sentenced a police officer to 18 months in jail – and acquitted two others – for his or her roles in final yr’s crush on the Kanjuruhan stadium, residents within the Indonesian metropolis of Malang say they really feel annoyed and disrespected.

Many determined to keep away from this week’s courtroom proceedings, saying they have been too traumatised from what that they had skilled and too disenchanted with what they referred to as a scarcity of accountability from authorities.

Two match officers have been additionally jailed final week over the October 2022 crush, which was triggered by police firing dozens of rounds of tear gasoline on the finish of a match between native golf equipment. Followers rushed for the exits, solely to seek out lots of the gates locked. Some 135 folks died in what was one of many worst stadium disasters in historical past.

Virtually six months later, the group remains to be in mourning.

Al Jazeera met a number of the survivors in addition to kin of those that died that evening in Malang to ask them how the tragedy has formed their lives.

Wiyanto, Father of 21-year-old sufferer Septian Ragil Syahputra Wiyanto

We have been so shut. We hung out collectively each day. Praying, hanging out after work, smoking cigarettes collectively and speaking about every part.

I nonetheless miss him a lot. It’s so troublesome, I can’t do away with this trauma. I simply can’t. I can’t put this behind me. I’m at all times fascinated by him. My household is traumatised.

The household of his fiancé can also be in shock. Three days earlier than the tragedy, I went to their home with him, as it’s the Javanese customized to suggest like this, to ask the household. His fiancé typically cries, even now.

For 40 days after he died, I couldn’t go to work. I simply couldn’t. My workplace didn’t enable it, so I misplaced my job. Greater than 5 months later, there isn’t a actual punishment. What I wished was for the folks linked to the taking pictures of the tear gasoline to get the punishment they deserved. It’s in regards to the lives of 135 folks. Even simply an accident or assault can get increased punishments.

I’m simply so drained. There is no such thing as a justice for the victims of the Kanjuruhan tragedy. The households of the victims have to go away it in God’s fingers.

Andik Harianto, Survivor whose spouse and two daughters died

It’s a really messy scenario. However what can we do now? I’m doing every part now for our son Rian (2 years and three months previous) – altering diapers and cleansing him. Some folks have requested me to go and discuss to the mayor or discuss to the governor. However there isn’t a final result.

Our family members are already gone. If we need to preserve attempting to sue folks, it can simply convey extra ache for us.

The decision will not be truthful. If I hit somebody on the highway and he breaks his bones, I might get extra time in jail than the folks on this case. And on this case, many individuals died.

My most important fear is about my son. I fear he’s much less clever than he needs to be. When his mom was alive, he may depend to 10. Now he’s confused. He discovered lots from his mum and sisters, who have been very sensible youngsters. I don’t know easy methods to educate him. He simply desires to be near me.

Nanda Rizky Kurnia Sandi, Survivor

I’m nonetheless traumatised. I nonetheless get the chills. I nonetheless clearly keep in mind the sound of tear gasoline being fired. And the sound of individuals crying for assist. And the our bodies being laid down. Their faces – I keep in mind them clearly.

I haven’t watched soccer in a stadium since Kanjuruhan. My associates requested me to go watch soccer in different cities. However I don’t need to.

I’ve been following the case carefully as a result of it’s about 135 lives. And now, it’s like nothing occurred in any respect.

The soccer golf equipment are enjoying once more. The dealing with of this case has gone on quietly. So quiet. The punishment will not be sufficient. We nonetheless need justice. Why did the committee promote extra tickets than the capability of the stadium? And the police, why would they use teargas? It was so unsuitable.

In Could, Indonesia will host the boys’s under-20 FIFA match. How will safety forces cope with foreigners? And the way will the Indonesian spectators behave? I fear the identical factor may occur.

Galih Wahyu Prakoso, Survivor, Member of Arema Apache Fan Membership

I typically have flashbacks of the incident after I’m about to sleep.

I used to be harm that evening, I sprained my knee falling down the steps. My eyes burned for 2 weeks and my knee was injured for nearly a month.

Essentially the most terrible factor was after I noticed a small youngster being trampled. I can’t bear to consider it now. And to see my associates, lifeless within the hospital.

For me, the result will not be justice. Even a lot lighter violations may end up in eight or 9 years in jail.

I maintain the organisers accountable and the police. Lower than two years in jail is nothing. Why did they shoot teargas? The followers have been solely displaying their emotions. The end result means they don’t respect the victims. Now we have misplaced our associates, how come the punishment is so mild?